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bright eyes hello

I need some meaning i can memorise
the kind i have always seems to slip my mind
but you but you,
write such pretty words
but life's no story book
love is an excuse to get hurt
and to hurt

"do you like to hurt?"
"I do I do"
"then hurt me"
"then hurt me"

just thinking about some things
and remembering songs
and words

and also i haven't heard this one before but i like it

Jun. 2nd, 2008

It's like Livejournal and stuff
and I is here ya know?

it's been ages but then mostly it's ALWAYS been ages

right now I have to do a shit load of tidying and job getting

so i shall try and come back


Oct. 29th, 2007

ok so

I might go and get another tattoo in my lunchbreak, if there's time, money and willingness....

just under my right ankle.....

But I haven't chosen yet...

I said nothing
-Ted Hughes, Fever
"You were overloaded. I said nothing.
I said nothing. The stone man made soup.
The burning woman drank it."

Being in love is totally punk rock.

- Asofterworld.com
"I laugh along, but inside I know that it's true; being in love is totally punk rock"


-Whatever Happened To Baby Jane?

The Union Says No Miracles

-The Bespoke Overcoat

I am Jack's complete lack of surprise

I felt like destroying something beautiful

Someday I'd be dead without a scar

*edit* Even the Mona Lisa is falling apart.

-Chuck Palahniuk
Fight Club

Because sponges never have a bad day

-Chuck Palahnuik


I don't get why it takes so fucking long to clear money these days, I mean it's not like the dark ages.
Come on just give over the money stop stealing all my fucking interest and pay the people who need paying instantly. I only wish Scott could've lent me that money in cash, but even then it probably wouldn't have actually gone into my visa in time. Anyways so now despite paying more than the minimum payment they were asking for a tiny bit late, the balance of my account has gone up(it won't yet let me see the statement page that should tell me what's what), the amount I paid in doesn't even bring it below the limit. and what with th bank charges on my debit card I can't exactly stretch the little monies in their left very far at all
So considering I was lent £350 to clear things and stop people being angry it wasn't in time
And I can't exactly borrow much more...

At least they haven't send me angry post yet demanding i pay it all
an automated phonecall asking me to make a payment I've already made....

Good Morning Starshine

Now I have to hound Jobseekers and find out why this claim is taking so long, probably because they are lazy bums and haven't phoned me back

Well hopefully Marks and Spencers or Debenhams will give me a job on the spot

ok on seperate Scrubs characte things I got different results

there was elliot, and someone else.....
but best of allll......


i guess i really got bored...
eee my mum bought a bear suit for Tor and I was awoken by a little snuggly bear this morning
swimming and family fun and such has been lovely
shame the bank had to go and charge me monies

in total, since the end of august I have paid £160 worth of bank charges...only £75 of that was daily excess...
I think this is highly unreasonable.  it also now means that the £50 I had been planning for to buy train tickets to see lovelies and patrick wolf and such is diminished down to a measily £15 *mope*

but other than such let downs things are looking up
(if you forget that I still don't have a job)




tidy tidy. tidy tidy.
some said it could never be done
some never even dared imagine it
but it's happening (AGAIN)

If it does become messy quick sharp there is rhyme and reason behind it
and generally a certain preciseness (yes actually)
Feeling incredibly dull.
And still very irritable
Still haven't worked out what's got me so frustrated

Trial shift at Juice Moose was alright, but I think my suspicions of claustrophobia were largely correct, and am unsure now whether getting to know the staff would reduce the feeling or worsen it.

Still waiting to hear from H&M, but going into Topshop on thursday anyhow so fingers crossed

If I can wrangle it I'm gonna keep myself free from 12-22nd.... Go to Cornwall, see Shychild and go to High Wycombe with Charlie Bear, and then from there possibly (if I get a place+can stay at a friends...) Stewarding for the Bloomsbury Festival....which is a paid stewarding job for a change

##before you're reading your list of vices

Tagged by richsc

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

1.I tend to be distracted or terribly excited about small(/fairly mundane) things...like buttons and broken crap that i find, and yes even the dullest of board games at 5am could thrill me

2.If it's possible I often seem to walk a circular route, or simply round in circles

3.I've always set myself challenges when travelling...like counting the lines in the middle of roads or how many lamp posts, the route with the least roads to cross etc.

4.I hate not having any element of control in a situation

5.I find people claustrophobic. (but to be alone I have to know that if I chose to I could have company)

6.If I get stuck on a word I can't help but repeat it again and again, yet I'm terrified of OCD

7.I laugh when I cry because I find myself ridiculous (apart from panic attacks then i just can't breathe...)

lady_fuschiawrathchild_89salaroobloggerfrog erm not actually sure who else reads this filth

You got it, you got it!

talking heads- (nothing but)flowers

Here we stand
Like an Adam and an Eve
The Garden of Eden
Two fools in love
So beautiful and strong
The birds in the trees
Are smiling upon them
From the age of the dinosaurs
Cars have run on gasoline
Where, where have they gone?
Now, it's nothing but flowers

There was a factory
Now there are mountains and rivers
you got it, you got it

We caught a rattlesnake
Now we got something for dinner
we got it, we got it

There was a shopping mall
Now it's all covered with flowers
you've got it, you've got it

If this is paradise
I wish I had a lawnmower
you've got it, you've got it

Years ago
I was an angry young man
I'd pretend
That I was a billboard
Standing tall
By the side of the road
I fell in love
With a beautiful highway
This used to be real estate
Now it's only fields and trees
Where, where is the town
Now, it's nothing but flowers
The highways and cars
Were sacrificed for agriculture
I thought that we'd start over
But I guess I was wrong

Once there were parking lots
Now it's a peaceful oasis
you got it, you got it

This was a Pizza Hut
Now it's all covered with daisies
you got it, you got it

I miss the honky tonks,
Dairy Queens, and 7-Elevens
you got it, you got it

And as things fell apart
Nobody paid much attention
you got it, you got it

I dream of cherry pies,
Candy bars, and chocolate chip cookies
you got it, you got it

We used to microwave
Now we just eat nuts and berries
you got it, you got it

This was a discount store,
Now it's turned into a cornfield
you got it, you got it

Don't leave me stranded here
I can't get used to this lifestyle